"Masturbation" The Unwanted Sexual Behavior
This is the story of mine, it begin at my early age, as young as 12 years old I discovered masturbation due to curiosity but later on it became my daily habit I cannot live without it. I have never imagined that masturbation would be considered an addiction. Ever since then I had been doing it when I feel bored, stress, depress or even make time to masturbate. I can’t even get my work done because I would be too busy masturbating the whole day and keep on say I will do it later. I’m laughing at my myself because I never recognize masturbate has taken over my life.
In the beginning it is just something that feels so good and I just want to experience the ecstasy of it. After a while it becomes the addiction where my body constantly asks for it. Then I realized that it destroy me. It makes me feel tired, irritable and far from God. It affects my relationships to Him and to my family and most importantly it destroys me. There is something I read in one article about “The strongest man is the one who controls the mind.” This is all about controlling the mind. It is something must constantly fight especially in the start. I never imagined that so many people could be suffering from this addiction but right now I really want to quit this malicious habit. Like I said and like other people already said, it also disturbs life. I have been deep into this addiction for almost 21years already and reached the point where it controls my life and honestly can not take it anymore but I am positive that I will make it.
To think, I honestly thought that it was just me with this problem. My life is on a downward spiral because of my lack of control. I am now 33 married with 3 kids, Porn and masturbation has literally ruined my life, I still feel inside that I’m a strong man.
In my mind there a lot of question, why on earth that I hooked on this addiction?
Recently I found the answer, in many years of wondering why this is happening to my life. I found that this addiction is a chemical addiction, it Through searching in the web I found many program that help people who are sexually addicted one of this is “Candeo Can” they help me understand why I cannot stop this addiction. This following text is what I read in one of candeo’s explanation about my addiction,
Pornography Addiction is a “Chemical Addiction.”
In order to begin moving forward with your own recovery, it’s important to understand
The nature of your addiction and “How you got here.” Learning that there is a logical,
Reasonable, scientific explanation behind your struggles will change the way you view
Yourself and be a huge advantage in moving forward.
To understand how and why pornography has such a radically negative impact on the
Brain, you must first understand the true nature of sexual intimacy as divinely intended to
Be—the true purposes for which this sacred power and wondrous gift was placed within
Each of us. We all have a “sex drive.” This is exactly as God intended it to be. You are
Going to have sexual thoughts, urges and desires. In fact, this is nothing more or less than
“The power to co-create life” being manifest in you—the life of another human being,
And/or the life of a marriage relationship. This in no way makes you a bad, perverted or
Flawed person! It’s what you do with these urges—how you direct this power, this
Energy that makes all the difference.
Pornography is powerful because it takes advantage of and taps into intense emotional,
Biological and chemical connections throughout the brain and the entire body. We are
Born with many of these connections “pre-wired” or “pre-set” to switch on at certain
Times in our development. Pornography seeks to twist the truth and “mimic” or
“Counterfeit” this built-in attraction. Its goal is to ignite, excite and exploit these natural
Built-in urges and desires.
During sexual process, the brain begins narrowing its focus as it releases a tidal wave of
Endorphins and other petrochemicals like dopamine, norepinephrine, oxytocin and
Serotonin. These “natural drugs” produce a tremendous rush or high. When these
Chemicals are released during healthy marital intimacy we refer to them as “the fabulous
Four” because of the myriad positive benefits they generate between husband and wife.
When they are released during pornography use and other sexual addiction behaviors, we
Call them “the fearsome four” due to the severe addiction and many negative
Consequences they produce.
Pornography Addiction is a “Drug Addiction”
Now you know why we refer to pornography use as substance abuse. In fact, the
neurochemical release triggered by pornography viewing is so intense, many scientists
Refer to it as the most powerful drug in history.
Many would agree that we live in the most stressful time in the history of the world—
there are more than enough pressures to push us to seek escape through self-medication.
This can take many forms—alcoholics, workaholics, foodaholics, and TV addicts, just to
name a few. There are also many healthy outlets such as exercise, meditation, service,
spiritual pursuits, hobbies and entertainment. Yet, even healthy outlets can become
problematic when taken to the extreme.
Imagine taking the most powerful drug in history and making it instantly available at the
push of a button, at little or no cost. Your drug use is totally secret, and the drug-pushers
come to you! What do you suppose would happen to addiction rates? That’s exactly what
the Internet has done with pornography. It’s what we call the “4 A’s of the Internet”—
Accessible, Affordable, Anonymous and Aggressive. Now can you understand why some
60 million people in the U.S. alone are caught up in this “drug use” at some level? Can
you understand how you got pulled in?
Take Courage—You Have Everything You Need to Be Completely Free!
Often, after people learn about the science behind pornography addiction, and recognize
the Internet as a “drug delivery system,” many feel completely overwhelmed by the
power of it all. They say, “Why don’t we just throw ourselves in front of a speeding
train—it’s hopeless!” If you’re feeling this way, take courage! Yes, this addiction is
powerful. If it were not, you would have conquered it long ago. However, the solution
you’ve been searching and hoping for is here and it’s amazingly simple.
Everything you need to be completely and permanently free of pornography and sexual
addiction is already built-in to the very structure of your brain! It’s what we call your
“divine gift for change.” It was placed there by your Creator. You’re already brilliant in
its use—the power and depth of your addiction proves this. All you need to do is
understand how this gift works, and then follow some simple steps to manage and direct
it. As we say, “The same process that got you into your addiction will get you out!” In the
past, this power within you has been a weakness. Now we will help you transform it into
your greatest strength.
There are also some forums that help me to my journey of recovery. The reason I write tthis blog is to think that it can help me and help other people who also suffered from this addiction. This blog is to encourage people that there is a cure. to all, you are free to ad comment here and share your own addiction.
